An Act of Faith.....Creating a Nursery

     Rod and I felt that it was appropriate to create a nursery for Aliyah as we continued to stand in faith for her complete healing. I enjoyed picking out pieces of furniture from yard sales and then making them into something more beautiful with the strokes of a paintbrush. The long hours of painting also gave me lots of time to listen to many faith inspiring sermons!
     It felt good to be able to create a room for Aliyah. It was something tangible we could do for our little girl. I made sure to incorporate some butterflies into her room since I continued to see them often! 
      Some days I loved to just walk into the room, look around, and marvel at how the Lord was so close to us during this time.

Surrendering

Journal Entry from September 11, 2010:
Dear Father,
      Yesterday I went for a walk at Lancaster County Park on our favorite walking trail. I once again was struggling with the fact that Aliyah might not be healed and that somehow all the words of knowledge we received, all the dreams and visions people had felt that you gave them about Aliyah, the angel that I had seen in my dream.......maybe these experiences were all just a set-up. What if she was not healed and all of our hopes came crashing down on the day of her birth.
       As I was talking with You about this, I heard You whisper to my spirit, "Why do you doubt My character? You say that I am a good God, but you don't believe it." 
     Even though this was extremely difficult to hear, it spoke directly to my soul and went after the unbelief and doubt that I had hidden away within me. 
      It all comes down to whether or not I am willing to lay myself and my desires completely down in surrender so that I am able to fully reach up to You with open arms. Abba, I need You, You're the one I want, You're the only One who can truly satisfy. I trust You. You truly are a good Father. Your nearness is our good.