Monday, September 29, 2014

The Aftermath

Journal Entry from November 17, 2010:

Dear Father,

We do not understand why Aliyah was not healed. As we entered the hospital the day before Aliyah's birthday, we would have put a million dollars down that she was healed.

We had close to 30 people receive words of knowledge, visions, and dreams all having to do with Aliyah's healing. You even sent an angel to encourage me!! Before Aliyah was born, Rod and I talked about what Aliyah's testimony of healing would look like and how many people it might reach. What would it be like to BAFFLE the medical community?!?! We were ready for a powerful testimony of Your healing touch upon our daughter's life!! But, she was not healed on this side of Heaven as we and many others had contended for......

Many people expected Rod and I to feel angry at You in the aftermath of losing Aliyah, in fact we were warned from the very beginning that this was the "type of situation that people can lose their faith over." But the crazy thing is that neither of us have experienced this. You have completely shielded us from the path of bitterness, resentment, unbelief, and hardening of our hearts towards You. You came into our situation and showed up in such supernatural and miraculous ways and THIS protected us through the past six months and protects us EVEN NOW as we face the reality that Aliyah will never be apart of our earthly family. Your GRACE and STRENGTH are ALWAYS enough. No matter what we face. We are forever changed by the life of our sweet Aliyah Joy and I know more now than ever before that You are for us, not against us. And that revelation in and of itself is such an amazing gift.