A Day That I Would Like to Forget......

Journal Entry from April 10, 2010:

      It seemed like a normal Saturday morning..... Rod had left to go to Gateway House of Prayer and I enjoyed sleeping in. When I got up, I noticed that I was bleeding some and quickly called Rod. My mom took me to the Triage Unit at Women and Babies Hospital and Rod met us there.

      I noticed the large the amount of peace I felt in the midst of feeling fearful. I felt like the Lord was saying to me, "Janae, TRUST me."

      We were pleasantly surprised to see the baby moving around on the ultrasound screen! We ended up waiting five hours for Dr. Wyse to come and go over the results with us as she was doing an emergency c-section. My bleeding had stopped and the baby seemed to be doing well, we assumed that we would be given a good report.

       We were extremely surprised when Dr. Wyse informed us that it appeared that something was wrong with our baby's brain. Dr. Wyse mentioned words like choroid cysts or possible mental retardation. It was absolutely CRUSHING to receive this news.

      Rod and I went home and crawled into bed crying together....the future was so uncertain. We would go for a more in-depth ultrasound at the specialist in a week.